Thursday, August 30, 2007

my extraordinary......


ex·traor·di·nar·y ~ adj.
Beyond what is ordinary or usual: extraordinary authority.
Highly exceptional; remarkable: an extraordinary achievement.
Employed or used for a special service, function, or occasion: a minister extraordinary; an extraordinary professor.


—Synonyms 1. inordinate. 2. uncommon, singular, rare, phenomenal, special, signal.
—Antonyms 1, 2. common, usual.


i was with some friends the other day who are also mothers. we were talking about what our "thing" was. that one activity that defines us, that makes us who we are. it seems that once we had our babies we lost our "thing". you know before i had BellaRose i sold insurance. i guess that i would not really want that to be my "thing". i am sure anyone can do it if they have the proper training. i also rode horses, and i loved it, still do, although i have not done it in over a year now. that blows my mind. the acitivity that i had put all my focus on and really made me who i am, i have not done in a year. oh i could, and i will, but not yet. i also snowboarded. i loved it. i loved having the wind whipping my face and flying down the mountain not hearing anything but the snow beneath my board. i felt free, just as i did on my horse when we were soaring over fences. but now i have not done anyone of those things that i trained so hard to be. my one friend was saying how she wants to do something extraordinary, remarkable. for some reason that conversation as not left me. i think about it a lot. i think about it when i am at home taking care of my precious baby, and i think about it when i am hanging out with my remarkable friends, and i wonder if i will do anything extraordinary, if i will be known for anything, and then i look at my baby. SHE is my extraordinary, SHE is my remarkable. no one has ever done what i have done, no one, besides Worth and me by God's grace has made a BellaRose and that is phenomenal and special. i guess i am slowly growing a mother's heart. my world has become BellaRose. i can leave her and go out with my friends, but i think about her, and miss her. i know i will win no awards like i did win i rode horses or be acknowledged in front of crowd, but when my baby one day walks across a stage to get a diploma, or flies down a hill on a snowboard, or boats a mighty rapid that will be my reward. i am learning a lot and have learned a lot these past few months. i thought i knew about love, but i had no idea. i love my husband, but he can fend for himself without me. Worth and i are everything to her. we pray we train her up right and to be a good person, and to me that is extraordinary.

14 comments:

Becky and Jeremiah Swann said...

It has been a blessing to see God give you such a mother's heart. BellaRose is a very fortunate little girl to have such amazing parents. She is such a sweetie I need to see that little gal soon!

KatieKate said...

aw, Sun...
That was beautiful, Friend!

It IS such an honor to be given these little packages to grow up- so scary and yet so amazing.

Heidi and Richard King said...

what a great reminder that God is doing a GREAT THING in our lives right now, as mothers of these precious ones with such untapped potential. Thank you for writing that...I needed to hear that God is not done with me today and He has big things in the future through their lives and mine.

Becky and Jeremiah Swann said...

Saw what you wrote on Lisser's the image of you being that cat made me laugh pretty awkwardly and loud.

MC and Brian Phillips said...

wow, Sunday....well said. You are a wonderful wonderful mother.

Just April... said...

What a great post, Sunday! I agree, having, and raising a child - even from this single point of view - IS the most extraordinary thing you can possibly do! And with God's help...each day will hold it's own remarkable-ness!

sunday said...

i will see you all in a week. we are heading to the beach!

Rebecca said...

I mean...I'm crying now. How inspirational. What a writer you are!

BacShortly said...

It has never crossed our minds that we could actually hold 'love.'

You have gifts Sunday, the feelings that feed your thoughts into words, and of course the extraordinary little bundle of love that weighs on those feelings.

Wonderful

The VanderPloeg's said...

So well said, Sunday.
I will now be reminded when I look at our 2 girls, that they are MY extraordinary.

Courtney said...

Sunday.. I think it is so wonderful how God has given you BellaRose and how your heart continues to change and grown through this whole experience. I too have quested what is my extraordinary and I think you have nailed it on the head. I hope all is well.. I hope to see everyone soon!

Jessica, Myron and Rylie said...

i need my BellaRose fix for the week....where is she????

Becky and Jeremiah Swann said...

I miss my little beach-goer! hope you had fun!

Anonymous said...

i was that friend and it is truely a struggle for me to see that, in the routine is greatness for them.. my children. and that routine is what i get overwhelmed by, and that particular day was a hard one for me and you said something that really spoke to me as well. i said that i wanted to live an extraordinary life and you said i bet your children would say that you are...

you are so wise sunday!