Sunday, May 11, 2008

Oh Mother

Today is Mother's day and I feel the blog community is about to be inundated with post about Mothers, as well it should be! This day marks my first mother's day. Last year I just almost made it, as BellaRose was due on the 14th and Mother's day last year was the 13th, but she did not come until the 22nd and that is a whole other story. Sorry, back to the point at hand, mommas! I was reading a forward from a friend about Mother's and one of the quotes said, "Before I was a Mom -I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body". For me that pretty much sums it up. BellaRose is my heart. As we approach her 1st birthday the magical question begins to be asked "when are you having another". I know we will....eventually, but right now I just could not imagine sharing this love I have for this baby with anyone else. I am just going to say it, she is my favorite! There it is, call me a bad mom, but BellaRose, hands down is my most favorite baby, she is my heart.
This past Friday she felt very warm to me, but I thought it was because it was so warm outside. I came home and took her temperature and it was 103! My poor sweet little girl. This was her first fever. That fever lead to a very long night with Sweetie Baby waking up every hour on the hour. At one point it felt like her temp was well passed 103 but I just almost could not even bare to take it. I find it interesting that this happened on Mother's day weekend (we can make it a weekend right?). I would have done anything in the whole world to take on that fever for her, but I could not. I just held her, and loved her, and told her it would get better, and it did, Praise the Lord, get better! I might not have said these same things last year while I was sitting there staring at my big ole belly waiting for this baby to come. I might not have said I would take on a 104 degree fever. I would have liked to hope I would but I could not promise you I would. Something changes the minute you have your baby and you are holding them in your arms. Nothing matters, not the pregnancy nor the pain of labor. My life feels complete right now, I am married to the man of my dreams who took my breath away the first time I met him and I have the most delightful wonderful baby in the world. I know when we have another baby I will have all those same feelings, but right now life is pretty much perfect!
I want to tell Worth's mom, Harriet (aka-T-love) and my mom (AKA-OG) Happy Mother's day. Thank you for everything and allowing your hearts to live on the outside in your 3 children, we could not have this family without you!
I also want to thank Worth for making this first Mother's day for me so special. What a wonderful man I am married to, I know I have mentioned that a time or two to you!


Tripp, Jack & Charlotte said...

What a sweet post! Sharing the love was the hardest thing Ive had to do because I was the same way with Tripp that you are with BR...but once #2 comes along youll figure it out! #2 is just as deserving of the love as #1! Its just hard to split and when I was pregnant w Jack I felt to guilty about having to split the love and not just concentrate on Tripp but giving him a brother and sister was the best thing in the world I couldve given him!

LisserCoates said...

Happy Mothers Day! I love your post, so sweet. I am also so glad Bella Rose is feeling better. I know that first fever has to be a dozy on a mother. Tell Worth to keep up the excellent work.
Love You Three!

KatieKate said...

Happy Mother's Day to you! So sorry to hear about the fever- it is a terrible time. We've only gone through one so far and, man, I just ACHED for that litle kiddo!

JTP said...

Ahhh poor BR- I'm glad she is feeling better. It makes me excited to think about that first year, and it's nice to read your posts, because right now I don't like being pregnant!!!!! I am just ready for baby William to get here so I can feel all those things and not just an aching back :-)
I will email you the bana muffin recipe- it's yum yum!!!!

Jessica, Myron and Rylie said...

Aww, I wondered about her this weekend. Rylie had a temp too but only 102. I am so sorry.

JT[P] Sunday is so right! you totally forget all the discomforts and labor and everything when you actually have that baby. Then 14 months later your sitting at the dinner table with your friend who just found out she is pregnant, and maybe you have had one to many glasses of wine, and you start talking about how you could do it again, it wasnt that bad, bla bla bla. Then you find out your pregnant again and it all comes flooding back.

But its worth it. 110%

Becky Swann said...

Yeah I'm so glad I can relate to that love you are talking about, Thanks for being a mom first and letting me observe you before I had to do it myself! You are a fabulous mom BellaRose is a blessed baby!